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Brief Introduction: Hm... So, i haven't been in the forum for months, and the reason is because i've been doing a lot on my personal life such as developing new personal relations and also working on myself, but before all that progress i had in my life, i went through the hardest times i could ever think of: the loneliness I'm an introvert, so i usually like to be alone, but it changes when it comes to feel alone I always loved to have my own time, thanks to that i discovered touhou and other things that made me happier, such as doing physical exercises and playing games, also thanks to that i found this forum where i did share a lot of my personal experiences and also opinions Since i disappeared, some people such as @CountVonNumenor asked what happened and if i was going to come back, and well, i'm not sure tbh, i found this forum cuz i wanted to share the few experiences i lived and also to know more about touhou, but in the transition between 2022 and 2023 my life changed completely, since i started dealing with several problems and also, with the loneliness feeling My experience with loneliness: So, since past year i've been talking to a girl which had several problems about health and her personal life, once she was a cocaine user and also a depression victim, but since i met her she changed, at least most of the time, she didn't use drugs or cut herself (due to her problems), it was life her life changed, even the subjects we used to talk about changed and instead of talking about negative stuff, we started talking about life and good things such as travels and etc Well, that was what i thought, this year she met another guy, but instead of trying to help her like i was trying to do, he did support her on all the shit she used to do, she even went to his house to smoke weed and have sex, and i didn't care at all, since it's her life and she can do what she wanted to I started to get away from her because she started saying weird stuff and asking me out, but i never wanted a relationship with her, and plus, some months ago she was having sex with another guy with the same problems as her, so why should i accept someone like that? Anyway, for some reason, i used to feel calm when she was near to me, but not because i loved her or smth, it's just because she was my only friend on work, once everyone went away from me since i started to meet up with her After some time she completely stopped to talk to me and blocked me on some places, and it made me get into a prison inside of my mind, i started to have a strong anxiety because i felt completely switched, i didn't have nobody to talk to, several times i did take my phone during the day to see if someone sent me a message or something, and nothing But then my friends tried to talk back to me, which didn't work, i got accustomed with being lonely, but i was still sad, so what i wanted at all? I wanted her company, i became a emotional dependant on her while she was hanging out with several friends who did the same drugs as her and had the same weird ideas as her And it made me notice what loneliness feels like, isn't just being alone, isn't just about not having nobody to count with, but yes about being in a prison inside of your head, a prison where you're feed with negative thoughts and self-devaluation, when you can't think about nothing aside from the problems in your life and when all you think of is about yourself and about how pathetic is your situation, thinking about how some kind of miracle would solve everything and make you get back to feel the way you used to when you were happier Nowadays, i'm with new friends and i don't have this feeling anymore, at least not at a very destructive point, i started dating again and now i have a way better life, but the first point to get better, was recognizing what i was feeling, and well, i know several people go through the same, and that's why i'll talk more about it now Loneliness: Well, being lonely isn't something that happens suddenly, but yes something that you only notice when it's already in it's extreme point, nothing is never enough at all, you feel alone even if there's people who would talk to you if you needed, you can't just ignore it because it will always get inside of your mind, when you lay down on your bed and look at the ceiling while thinking a lot about your life for example, when you're frequently feeling yourself empty and without value to others It is certainly worse when you really don't have nobody who cares about you, and well, due to that, several people end up developing depression and other problems, but a problem which always happen even if you have or not somebody who care about you, is the anxiety Being lonely causes a lot of anxiety, once you're frequently waiting for someone to send you a message or show some kind of interest on you, when you don't know what's wrong about you that apparently is making people get away and give up on having a talk with you, when you're thinking so much about the wrong points in yourself that you can't even work/study well, when you're always trying to find or receive something which can be a way to solve your problems And well, being lonely can end up making of you a true vegetable, which don't have any perspective of future and don't try to get better, and it can destroy completely someone, since those people can end up trying to be someone else instead of trying to be someone better I'm writing this because, nowadays, i opened my eyes about all this situation, and i can see a lot of people dealing with this same problem, and having no idea about how to solve it, i can't give a solution though, since the way i found to get better was forcing myself into new people till i found my friends i have now, and as much as i can recommend that, i'd say, everybody will always find their ways to solve their own problems Loneliness is literally killing people, and i say that not just because i had suicidal thoughts during that time, but also because i see a lot of people doing the same, and i did see people who actually did commit suicide due to this Please, take care of yourselves and try doing therapy or going to a psychologist, i'm not a doctor or a therapist, but yes one of the several people who already went through all that, and i don't desire this feeling not even for my worst enemy Maybe your problem can even be more serious, like depression or something, so, yeah, you should look for medical help if you identify with what i wrote, since i just got worse when i didn't look for this kind of professional help, i could get better alone, but this situation isn't the same for everyone See y'all someday! =D

That's just a thread where you can share music from your country =) I'm from Brazil and i really love the music from my country, i'll try sharing some that you might find interesting My favorite band of all time is Charlie Brown Jr, they make rock, reggae and also other genres like rap, sometimes also mixing all the genres, those are some music you might enjoy: The story of CBJR is actually really sad but well, their music is amazing and they're surely legends of the brazilian rock culture If you're not someone who likes rock too much, i recommend Tim Maia, who makes some Bossa, Pop and Samba music: Tim Maia is someone who completely changed the way brazilian music was and surely was an amazing musician, you can find several other music from him where he shows a lot of ability! I'm not someone really into Rap but sometimes i listen to a specific group called Racionais, if you like the genre, take a look into it: Racionais is a group that talked about the crime in the poor regions of the country, and reported against the criminal violence, sometimes also talking about the police too Now that i talked about some music, the Brazilian music genres are pretty interesting, and i'll talk about one in specific that's the Bossa Nova Bossa nova is a mix between Jazz and Samba, two different genres that goes really well together Maybe you already listened to some Bossa Nova music, since it is pretty popular worldwide =) Some of Bossa Nova:

That's a really interesting question actually In my opinion, people that overconsume any media, like games, animes and movies/series can end up breaking the barrier between these 2 and end up thinking of the real world like if it was the media they like A good example are the beauty patterns in general, people use really beautiful women and really muscular man with beautiful hairs and eyes to think of a model of a man or a woman, and the same way it can happen with stuff that aren't real, like anime Actually, people get way too used to stuff they end up seeing on popular media and can end up adapting it to real life, i think there's a limit of where this confusion is safe or not, like, i personally don't see a problem if the person has a really specific taste for women and men, but i do see a problem when the person starts to get in bad situations and mood due to this confusion I personally had the same situation during the quarantine, since all my contact with girls was with messages and most of them used anime or popular media characters profile pictures, but it changed as soon as i returned to my daily life of going out to work and study since i had to talk and deal with real women and etc, i think this kind of situation can happen due to 2 things: Way too much media consume; Way too little contact with real people. I experienced both at the same time and tbh, it is a situation that you can get over easily if you talk more to real people and consume more media that has real people instead of too much fictional media, but it depends if you can deal with this situation without problems or not, but well, at least for me, having more contact with real people helped in only some days I don't think is a problem if you can't describe how a real girl is since there's a lot of kinds and all them are different to each other in their ways, different to describing anime women since they usually has several similar features and details

That looks amazing! You're really good into it =D

Probably this is one of the topics that will not have a lot of replies and will die soon but, i've been playing a game from my childhood that sadly doesn't has a lot of active players nowadays The game is Ace Of Spades, also known as Build N' Shoot or OpenSpades (openspades is a remaster) The story of AoS is really long, so if you wanna understand it, watch this video: I'll explain the game in some topics: Gameplay, How it works and Best Servers to play in 2023 Gameplay The game is so simple, it was the reason it was popular, and the gameplay consists in basically build and destroy stuff while killing enemy players to bring the victory to your team, in some gamemodes, you capture a intel (aka flag), that's a case that you need to bring to your tent to get 10 points and get near to the victory, but there's also other gamemodes such as the Babel gamemode, where you have to build stairs to get the intel in the top of the map, while the enemy team does the same, and your objective is to destroy enemy's stairs or help your team to build yours The game has massive destruction, for example, when you break the basis of a construction, it completely falls and destroys itself in the ground, and you can also build, this function can be used to build barriers, towers, houses, penis and anything else you wanna build! The game has 3 different weapons that you can use selecting the one that applies better to you gaming style, the weapons are: Shotgun, SMG and Rifle Rifle: Reach long distances, 1 headshot or 2 shots to kill someone and works basically like a sniper, but without a scope Shotgun, Reach low distances, but can do hitkill when you're near enough, is good for close spaces, but can kill with only 1 headshot too SMG: Basically a submachine gun, it can shoot a lot of times at once and is good at any distance, can kill with 3 headshots, is my personal favorite Some nice gamemodes aside from CTF and Babel are: TDM - The first team to reach a certain number of kills win Survive - Basically a zombie survival (the zombies use shovel and have more life than you) TOW - The first team to dominate all the areas win Arena - Basically counter strike, but without a bomb, you just need to kill everyone and if you die you become a spectator Btw, if you're someone in a low PC, don't worry, the game was created exactly for low PCs, since it has 2.2MB and has voxlap graphics, and i'll explain what's voxlap in the next topic, but basically, if your PC runs DooM, it runs AoS Images of the game: Build N Shoot (runs in any potato): Openspades (also runs in any potato but you'll need to adjust all graphic settings to low for it, is the version i use btw): How it works? Basically, it is a game made with voxels (basically, a voxel would be a pixel, but in 3D), using a version called voxlap, that was made by a guy called Ken Silverman, i'd put his page here but google says it isn't secure (maybe because is a page from 2005 of a guy explaining a new engine he invented) And well, what Ken says is simple: "When I graduated college in May, 2000, I started working on a new voxel engine called "Voxlap". (For those newbies out there, the word "voxel" is derived from "volume + pixel". It's like a 2D pixel, but in 3D - just a fancy name for a cube.) Most game engines these days use polygons. Polygons and voxels each have their advantages and disadvantages. For example, it's a lot easier to destroy a wall in a voxel engine. Also, there's no penalty for drawing curved surfaces over flat surfaces in a voxel engine." Basically, it shows that voxel and voxlap games aren't heavy, mostly knowing how old it is (don't take it so literally, THERE ARE several heavy games made in voxel, but idk if there's heavy games made in voxlap) Now, going back to the AoS thing, you can download the game in it's official page: https://www.buildandshoot.com/download/ * You can choose the Build And Shoot launcher, that basically works like roblox, you go to the official website, join a game and it will start in the launcher * You can choose the Openspades version too, that basically has everything on it, since the server list to the game itself, Openspades is different due to stuff like it's 3D sound and ragdoll death, also 3D weapons and arms, with new sounds and also it's graphics, that are way more realistic, but no worries, my PC is also a low PC and it runs perfectly, just desactivate global illumination and put everything on low, or if you want way more FPS, switch the OpenGL config to the Software config in the start screen You can learn way more about AoS when you play it and discover the other stuff around it, like the fact you can download new textures, new maps (useful if you have a server) and a lot of other stuff! Your first nickname will be "Deuce", but you can change it on "Setup" when you start the game Best servers to play in 2023: 1 - NJS3 Hallway: Has scripts like mines and has the classic CTF gameplay in a classic map called Hallway, that already was played several times in the past 2 - aloha.pk Arena: The classic arena gamemode, not a lot to talk about it 3 - aloha.pk Tower Of Babel: The classic babel gamemode, with a script called Apocalipse, that works when a player get a high killstreak 4 - Servidor Do Ronaldo: is a TDM server, is pretty dead, but was made by my friend, so i think is nice to share it so we can play there! I hope you guys enjoy the game! Is really fun, and i really recommend if you have a low end PC or just want a simple FPS without a lot of stuff to learn about Here's a gameplay and the launch trailer video: Btw, the trailer has some weapons and characters that are different to the original ones for a simple reason: You can download textures for the game in gamebanana or in it's official website!

Well, for me it will be worth it, but think of yourself too, maybe you can take some time to yourself so you can watch the Amagami animes and that stuff, so you'll have more content to talk about! When you watch something, it is really different to the information the wiki provided, since the wiki will be more like a fast way to explain everything, since there's more content waiting for you when you see what Amagami itself has to offer I think you can still find a lot of nice stuff to talk about, but i think would be good to get more into it so you'll have more stuff to talk about later =D Oh, i'm the one that should thank you for keep posting, i really liked the thread! Mostly since it made me interested into something during my mornings, since i used to wake up, drink my coffee and come to the computer to check the forum, the first place i checked was this thread to see if there was new content, i really did enjoy seeing the fanarts and reading everything you had to talk about! I think it is common to people don't interact a lot with something that isn't inside their niche, but i'm sure that i wasn't the only one interested in the thread, since some people still reacted to the posts and seemed to enjoy reading it too =D I honestly would love to see more stuff on this thread, you did an amazing work, good job Count! =D

Brazil getting eliminated by Croatia made me cry But is nice to see our south American neighbor win the world cup, Argentina is really good playing soccer! =D Oh, i can't wait to see it! I found this game really interesting, i also found that there's a second game about Touhou Soccer, i saw it due to a combo where Rinnosuke appears shirtless (don't ask why it got my attention) It seems to be a really fun game, i think i'll check it!

So, as a fellow Brazilian, i love soccer (yes, the stereotype is real sometimes) But well, i was scrolling on youtube till i found a video from Suwawako covering a fangame about Touhou and soccer, and i'd like to know what you all think about it (at least for me, it is really funny but at the same time, it got my attention and made me want to download it) And yes, i know the world cup ended already but i think isn't so late to talk about this game, right? =') Anyway, if anyone already played it or wanna share it's opinion about it, feel free to do it! Btw, idk if anyone already talked about this game here so, sorry if someone already did! That's the video i'm talking about, if anyone would like to take a look about it: And if you wanna see a gameplay video without someone talking, there's it:

Well, it can even be a simple thread, but 2023 is a year that i really have hope into, mostly since i have some goals that i wanna achieve this year =) I'm someone kinda simple so, what i want the most are stuff related to some personal projects, like getting back to play bass (i used to do covers with friends 4 years ago but everyone got into it's path, so yeah, i stopped) to do some solo music, like K-On and Touhou covers I also wanna get back to hang out with some friends and i plan to do some stuff like beat the Touhou games i have downloaded =) And you? What do you plan to do or achieve this year? Feel free to talk about it here =D

Alright, Amagami just tricked me again with the way characters look like I noticed he was calm and kind but i'd never think he's in a depression state and that stuff =') I think the anime will change that at all, right? Since he'll live some love stories, maybe he won't be so sad in the end, and i also didn't think he would be a pervert sometimes or watch porn when lonely It is kinda surprising for a romance series, i never saw something similar tbh, he definitely is a unique character It actually makes me more interested into him and into Amagami itself, since it seems like it isn't just a happy romance like many others! And i wanna say, you did a great job looking for arts, all those of Junichi and the girls are really cute and wholesome! I agree with you about Junichi being someone relatable, mostly since the stuff he go through alone, like depression and watching porn when feels lonely are some stuff that are kinda real, but not only the bad, also the good stuff are also relatable, mostly his interactions with friends and with his girlfriend, it is wholesome and really cute, like, if i still was in a relationship, i'd probably see it with other eyes About having too little art, probably is because he's a male, just like the case of Umehara (i think it was his name), there's not a lot of content to do with it, but, you can use them to make really nice situations, just like you say about the wholesome and cute arts, and even the sexual ones, it depends on what you like And well, the incest thing, i won't even talk about it since maybe you already noticed how much i hate those disgusting stuff that people do when they see relatives or underage characters in anime, it's gross Btw, if you will talk about the connected series or even just post Kaoru art, i still think that it will be a nice thread to see! I really have fun seeing what you post here and i recommend you watching the animes too, since there's a lot of content you can find into it! Anyway, hope you have a great year in 2023 =D

So, that's interesting that there's some kind of "antagonist" in the story, mostly because i was thinking that it would be just a romance without lots of twists, it made me more interested into Amagami tbh Btw, she's a cute character, i personally like how they made her! Mostly because i like short hairs xd And that trap was kinda cruel tbh, it reminds me of that girl that asked Junichi after he helped her, and then Kaoru punched him xd Oh, then she's the last one before Junichi Honestly, i really had fun reading all the thread, it was really nice and i admire your effort into it! Btw, don't worry about the time away from the forum, i think a lot of people also did since the late year parties usually take a lot of our time to enjoy our families and other stuff! (I'm included into it, is also because of that i didn't watch Amagami yet and neither posted anything here xd) About stopping, i honestly think you should do what you think is better for you, if there's more content, i'd love to see it! I really like reading this thread, since is like i'm seeing a series of stuff that really interest me! But, just like series have time before getting new seasons, i think you should get some rest before you keep writing (if you will keep writing, of course!), since probably it is kinda good for everyone to take a time before keep going with something! Or you could also start a new thread about those other Amagami related series, since it seems like a really nice universe!

I'm back to the forum! Agreed! She looks really cute! Oh, it's a surprise that she's kind and is always smiling! For some reason, when i first looked at her, she seemed like a cold character for me xd Maybe i'm getting tricked by the fact that most characters have personalities that match the way they look like xd And idk if it's just me but, i think the creator of Amagami kinda likes characters with black straight hairs, since there's a lot of them! Ngl that's nice I thought of it, that was such a good character for this forum xd That's interesting too! It's also nice to think that Amagami has a lot of characters with brothers and sisters, it's something interesting! Also the way they make them with similar looks to their brothers/sisters, even though is a simple detail, as someone that already watched a lot of animes, i can say that isn't always that the creators make people from the same family have the same looks, usually they're between very different (like in Charlotte, between Yuu Otosaka and Ayumi Otosaka, even with their similarities, i wouldn't think they were relatives xd) or very similar (like Ui and Yui in K-On!)

In my personal opinion: The bad fans are the ones that try to categorize other fans because of what they like or what they have did about something Look, i have friends that i presented Touhou to, and i'm not a veteran or nothing, i only played some of the games and the first Touhous i've beaten were fangames like Thousand Night Anamnesis and Touhou Fantasia For me, Touhou stopped being just a game a long ago, nowadays it is a whole universe, the people i presented Touhou to haven't beaten any of the games but look, some know even more than i know about it, and look, is a universe just like Pokemon and that stuff, i barely saw a Pokemon fan that played the games or even watched the animes, but they really like the whole Pokemon universe, like, what categorize if you are or not a true fan? Exactly, only you, you know it the way you know, and the same goes to other people, like i said in the fanon vs canon thread, people can like any shit, it goes in their taste, and if they wanna know more about it, they can just search for it Like, i'm into Touhou for 2 months already and my friends that joined the community some weeks ago talk a lot about it and we can talk perfectly about the Touhou universe, people that categorize other people because of what they know about something aren't nothing more than brainless people living in their own shells where what they know is a standard that everyone else should follow Touhou is more than a game as i said, just look at that, hundreds and hundreds of characters, various kinds of games and fangames, figures and a lot of arts and even TV shows, like, what would be a true fan when there's thousands of stuff to like about Touhou? In the mid of everything into Touhou, if you like the fighting games, the bullet hell games, the animes or even the fanmade mangas and books, what matters? The important is that you like it, i started getting into Touhou thanks to fumos and what makes me someone with a "lower fan level"? The only thing that separates if you're a true fan or not, is what those shitheads put in their own minds, there's not a testament or anything you have to do to join the Touhou community Sorry if i said anything wrong btw!

You, know i'm noticing some similarities between the supporting characters xd Some of them have more closed eyes than the other characters in the series, i wonder if it was purposeful xd Btw, i liked her hair! It reminds me of those priestesses that use kimono, idk their names xd But honestly, is a nice looking character, and her interest for scuba diving is definitely something unique from her, i never saw it before! That's nice! And she having a quiet voice and loving her diving suit makes me imagine her as a cute character! I found this if it can help you, i found on 4archive, i think they talked about Amagami there at some point:

Oh, i perfectly understand those purposes... Alright Count you have convinced me, hope your researches get each moment better, cough cough Alright, she's the president of the tea club and is worried about the future of the club, since it will be left in the hands of other member I think K-On is kind of haunting me, each single thing i read here is "K-Onable" for me and i can't even explain why Btw, she's a cute character! (even tho i thought it was a boy in the first image xd) Her hair is cute and also her glasses, she seems like a smart character! I like how she look like, also her serious personality, it goes well with her design! Well, in my opinion, even if with little fanarts, it's nice to see parts from the anime! It makes me see how the characters actually look like and that's actually nice, would be interesting to keep it on btw! And i'm honestly surprised with how they managed to make NSFW with her, but well, even a anime like DenpaTeki Na Kanojo (extremely niche, i never saw not even a single living soul that know that) has a NSFW doujin (btw, this anime is also a recommendation if you like animes like Higurashi) And going to DeviantArt... I don't know nothing good from this place =') But, you did a great work with the information you had, good job! =D

Oh, got it! Thanks for the information, hope Count see it =)

Oh, got it! Then that's because of the variety, it makes sense I wish they could add something like a filter on Danbooru so you could choose NSFW to don't appear, but it probably wouldn't happen, at least half of Danbooru is just NSFW And 23.000 images of Touhou saved on pinterest is actually amazing, congratulations for it xd Wait a second Count... Ngl Maya has got kinda nice arts... Don't ask I really liked how she look like! It's a anime character that actual looks like a japanese person xd And wait, a boy follows Haruka? It seems like a interesting part of the anime that probably will make my heart beat fast to know what's gonna happen, sounds like a situation that would be awesome to see in a anime Knowing that she knows martial arts and like literary, she seems like a cold and at the same time a sweet character since she worries about how people see her due to her difficulties to smile Nice information 2 Got it, for some reason i feel like that with this information, more people will look into the thread xd And honestly, all the arts you put, even the spicy ones, are really beautiful, keep it up! =D

Well, i kinda made a introduction using a discord server and added my friend into it I introduced him to the canon and fandom things, and made a list of touhou games i recommend, for PC and Mobile I showed some of the characters and it worked! He likes touhou and it wasn't a big effort, i just needed a bit of free time =)

I love shadow of the colossus soundtrack! Is so catching and it was part of my childhood (mostly because of roblox games like Zombie Tower xd) It's a amazing soundtrack, specially the 8th OST called The Opened Way!

She seems like a kinda cute character, knowing about Umehara and that she's cheerful, i can imagine several cute scenes! And also her friend, i imagine interesting and nice stuff between them, since i love to see different stories into a main story I noticed it actually, not only by the little amount of fanarts but also because there's not a lot of information about them (it also makes me don't have a lot to talk about) but honestly, it's a great start to know the characters before watching the anime itself I'm excited to see the next posts, mostly because, i wanna know about Junichi xd It's being a nice thread, keep it up! And sorry for the delay to reply to everything, i think you know what happened already, so i took a time for myself and only got back to the forum today

He's a interesting character! He also seems kinda funny and cute to see xd Btw, is nice to see that Junichi has a best friend, i feel like it will make the anime funnier and more interesting, since we're not dealing only with girls that like Junichi in a romantic way anymore Calling him boss is something curious, i wonder how they ended up like that xd And him joking about Junichi being the couple of Miya, i feel like it will end up with funny moments xd I think he doesn't has a lot of content because he's a regular male (is pretty hard to draw males due to the lack of content to do with them, unless they have muscles or any other detail that can be covered in artistic works or NSFW) It's cute to see the fanarts where he appears with Kanae, i like when an anime shows more than only one romance in it's story! And the fact Kanae is liking someone, it gives a nice atmosphere, just imagine what can happen, maybe the answer was already shown and we don't know xd

Okay so This one is a character that got my attention She's so beautiful and seems to be a charismatic character, i feel like it will be my favorite character xd Btw i think there's gonna be funny moments with her knowing that she does some mistakes, it reminds me of Sawako teacher from K-On xd And it kinda scares me that the protagonist can attack her, what does it mean? =') Nice information I liked her honestly xd She's a beautiful adult character and also a teacher so, i doesn't really surprise me that there's a lot of NSFW of her even i liked her xd I recommend you for also searching for arts in pinterest or google itself, maybe you'll find less NSFW stuff this way! It's nice to know that you're listing it per latest to oldest characters! It shows a really nice effort from you!