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the only thing that's miserable is how you're treating yourself right now

idk kid I don't remember saying I want you buried six foot deep? I'm gonna be fully honest with ya, giving up on your talent this early, giving up on your potential and especially giving up your life like this is stupid as shit. everyone has tragedies they have to go through and everyone has challenges they have to face. life will never be easy, and that's what makes every accomplishment you do just that little bit sweeter.

maybe you won't be as popular as touhou is cause honestly that's a pretty high bar and a dream goal at best. take things slow and just do something you can be proud about, regardless of the success it has. do things for your own enjoyment, rather than for validation. you still have a long ways to go, so make the most of it.

I can't speak for her, but I don't think your mom would want to see you giving up like this, so push forward. the only person you'll be letting down doing this is yourself.

be happy with yourself and what you accomplished instead of making things to meet standards of those who have way more experience and way more practice in what they did than you do

don't have expectations for something that shouldn't be done to appease others, just be content with what you did, regardless of if it was bad or not, because every attempt helps build your confidence, your experience and molds your mindset into something more positive. failure is part of the process to success, remember that

I have no reason to hate you. I won't ever have one. you and I are strangers who've met in an unfortunate turn of events and that's all there is to it.