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Welcome to the world of Play-by-Post! Its a dying RP style which was really big back in the 90s and 2000s. It may seem odd or hard at times. But its a lot of fun. I'm happy to have you in the group, though I do have a favor to ask. Going by your app, you're new to writing for fun. While that's not a problem for me, it might make reading what you want to happen a little harder. Its nothing to be upset over though. Like riding a bike, you get better the more you do it. The favor is just that you do your best, and that'll be enough for me. If you can do that, you're welcome to join. :)

Hello there Hades! I see you're a newby to the forum. Is this your first pbp game? Sweet. Now just to have time to write.

It's taken from my real name which is "Moe Thae Nwe" ^^

Brief Introduction: Hm... So, i haven't been in the forum for months, and the reason is because i've been doing a lot on my personal life such as developing new personal relations and also working on myself, but before all that progress i had in my life, i went through the hardest times i could ever think of: the loneliness I'm an introvert, so i usually like to be alone, but it changes when it comes to feel alone I always loved to have my own time, thanks to that i discovered touhou and other things that made me happier, such as doing physical exercises and playing games, also thanks to that i found this forum where i did share a lot of my personal experiences and also opinions Since i disappeared, some people such as @CountVonNumenor asked what happened and if i was going to come back, and well, i'm not sure tbh, i found this forum cuz i wanted to share the few experiences i lived and also to know more about touhou, but in the transition between 2022 and 2023 my life changed completely, since i started dealing with several problems and also, with the loneliness feeling My experience with loneliness: So, since past year i've been talking to a girl which had several problems about health and her personal life, once she was a cocaine user and also a depression victim, but since i met her she changed, at least most of the time, she didn't use drugs or cut herself (due to her problems), it was life her life changed, even the subjects we used to talk about changed and instead of talking about negative stuff, we started talking about life and good things such as travels and etc Well, that was what i thought, this year she met another guy, but instead of trying to help her like i was trying to do, he did support her on all the shit she used to do, she even went to his house to smoke weed and have sex, and i didn't care at all, since it's her life and she can do what she wanted to I started to get away from her because she started saying weird stuff and asking me out, but i never wanted a relationship with her, and plus, some months ago she was having sex with another guy with the same problems as her, so why should i accept someone like that? Anyway, for some reason, i used to feel calm when she was near to me, but not because i loved her or smth, it's just because she was my only friend on work, once everyone went away from me since i started to meet up with her After some time she completely stopped to talk to me and blocked me on some places, and it made me get into a prison inside of my mind, i started to have a strong anxiety because i felt completely switched, i didn't have nobody to talk to, several times i did take my phone during the day to see if someone sent me a message or something, and nothing But then my friends tried to talk back to me, which didn't work, i got accustomed with being lonely, but i was still sad, so what i wanted at all? I wanted her company, i became a emotional dependant on her while she was hanging out with several friends who did the same drugs as her and had the same weird ideas as her And it made me notice what loneliness feels like, isn't just being alone, isn't just about not having nobody to count with, but yes about being in a prison inside of your head, a prison where you're feed with negative thoughts and self-devaluation, when you can't think about nothing aside from the problems in your life and when all you think of is about yourself and about how pathetic is your situation, thinking about how some kind of miracle would solve everything and make you get back to feel the way you used to when you were happier Nowadays, i'm with new friends and i don't have this feeling anymore, at least not at a very destructive point, i started dating again and now i have a way better life, but the first point to get better, was recognizing what i was feeling, and well, i know several people go through the same, and that's why i'll talk more about it now Loneliness: Well, being lonely isn't something that happens suddenly, but yes something that you only notice when it's already in it's extreme point, nothing is never enough at all, you feel alone even if there's people who would talk to you if you needed, you can't just ignore it because it will always get inside of your mind, when you lay down on your bed and look at the ceiling while thinking a lot about your life for example, when you're frequently feeling yourself empty and without value to others It is certainly worse when you really don't have nobody who cares about you, and well, due to that, several people end up developing depression and other problems, but a problem which always happen even if you have or not somebody who care about you, is the anxiety Being lonely causes a lot of anxiety, once you're frequently waiting for someone to send you a message or show some kind of interest on you, when you don't know what's wrong about you that apparently is making people get away and give up on having a talk with you, when you're thinking so much about the wrong points in yourself that you can't even work/study well, when you're always trying to find or receive something which can be a way to solve your problems And well, being lonely can end up making of you a true vegetable, which don't have any perspective of future and don't try to get better, and it can destroy completely someone, since those people can end up trying to be someone else instead of trying to be someone better I'm writing this because, nowadays, i opened my eyes about all this situation, and i can see a lot of people dealing with this same problem, and having no idea about how to solve it, i can't give a solution though, since the way i found to get better was forcing myself into new people till i found my friends i have now, and as much as i can recommend that, i'd say, everybody will always find their ways to solve their own problems Loneliness is literally killing people, and i say that not just because i had suicidal thoughts during that time, but also because i see a lot of people doing the same, and i did see people who actually did commit suicide due to this Please, take care of yourselves and try doing therapy or going to a psychologist, i'm not a doctor or a therapist, but yes one of the several people who already went through all that, and i don't desire this feeling not even for my worst enemy Maybe your problem can even be more serious, like depression or something, so, yeah, you should look for medical help if you identify with what i wrote, since i just got worse when i didn't look for this kind of professional help, i could get better alone, but this situation isn't the same for everyone See y'all someday! =D

https://en.touhouwiki.net/wiki/Curiosities_of_Lotus_Asia/Chapter_36 In Curiosities of Lotus Asia, Sumireko works for Rinnosuke while she visits. As payment, he gives her really old 1000-yen bills. He explains that such bills are worthless and only used in Gensokyo as hard-to-reproduce promissory notes, and they don't care about the amount written on the bill. According to him, Gensokyo works on the bartering system, so they are more like easy to carry "credits" than anything (if you are familiar with Canadian history, the HBC used a similar system before a standard currency was established back in the 17th century). It's implied she exploits this by offering to work for him in exchange for the bills, taking them home and selling them as collector's items due to their age. That said, As stated above, mon must exist as per not only the cards in Th18, but Komachi's spell cards also use them, and as a ferrywoman for the Sanzu, she does take payment in the form of said coins. How exactly they are used in Gensokyo is unknown as far as I know.

Hello. I started to suffer with loneliness when i was 22. It was 2019, 4 years later after my high school days reach its end. Always when i remember about that time, i feel very nostalgic plus lonely. Everyday i was doing something with my friends, it was so good, and after we all graduate, we all stapped seeing everyone more frequently. Also on general i miss getting affection from my parents, but i dont have any courage to go and ask for a hug or anything. For some time ive cried because of that, the feeling of loneliness really hurts. Good to see that you're taking care of yourself and going well! All the best.

Brother First of all Good to hear you are doing better then before I too used to feel exactly like you, even though I could get along well with mostly anyone, it was when I had nothing to do and was alone that the same thoughts you described started to creep into my mind. Where I live, there is a saying the empty mind is the Devils Mind. A lot of the things you described I have also experienced, although it was difficult for me an still is (to an extent) to express my feelings because you could say 'I am bad at emotions'. I am fully confident in you

Hello Mevs, I'm certain you don't recognize me as I joined after you left. Congratulations on starting to figure out something was wrong. Loneliness can be brutal, we thrived as a species thanks to our collaborative nature, and we are hardwired to seek connections. The best, practical advice I can give is the following: Stay Busy and Love Yourself. Find things to fill the void left by that toxic relationship, try to focus on things that don't have destructive potential, like eating a lot or spending unhealthy amounts of time devoted to entertainment. Learn things, find new people, create something, do exercise, anything that makes you enjoy life and don't get overly focused on the negative parts. Enjoy! Life is a gift! From reading the other responses, I can say, We are here to cheer you up.

Hey Mevs, It's been a while. I was wondering where you were this whole time, but now that I've read your post I can understand where you're coming from. While I don't have a lot to say, I certainly suffered from loneliness and anxiety to the point where it was slowly driving me to the point of madness and it almost ruined my life completely, that was one of the many reasons why I was seeking therapy to begin with. The amount of days and nights I've spent all alone was truly painful to me since I moved out of my dad's house which was toxic as fuck to in, I'm honestly glad I don't live with him anymore. Lemme just say: Seeking therapy was one of the best life decisions I have ever made and it made my life significantly better. I may not have a lot of friends (or any at all) and sure I don't trust some people nowadays but I'm honestly doing much better than I was back then. I'm just glad you're doing alright, hope everything works out for you. Cheers, mate.

I would have liked to leave a reply this evening, but it seems like it got late in the night, and what I was going to write would have been rather lengthy. I hope I can get back to is as soon as possible, and actually write what I wanted to say. This whole thread has hit way too close to home, and it reminds me too much of things that either happened or are happening to me right now. That entire feeling of loneliness is way too relatable, and I have also been fighting myself (a feelingly losing battle) against it.

Hey @_.Mevs. You won’t recognize me, even if I’ve seen your name now and then here. You left a couple months before I came onto the scene, and seem like a fun guy. I’m glad things have gotten better for you. Everyone has had their moments of weakness, but that is scant comfort when you are living through them in the moment. If you come back, I hope to get to know you. If you don't, I hope life is kind to you. Take it easy king.

For a game, you simply release on a platform that also has an official Touhou game being sold there. Easiest example is Steam, as there are tons of fangames that have a price tag attached to them. Another one is DLSite, where I buy Touhou games from (I know it's only TH13 onwards, but I've had an account there for a while, and I don't like booting up Steam all the time), and just like Steam, there's a ton of fangames available for sale. Console fangame availability would've been something I thought would breach the guidelines without explicit permission, but then Antinomy of Common Flowers (TH15.5) happened. That fighting game is an official Touhou game, and is available on PlayStation 4 and the Nintendo Switch, which would expand the platforms to sell fangames on by proxy. Written fanworks can be also found on DLSite, and official manga is sold via Amazon JP and other avenues. Often times, you'll see things like Fanbox/Patreon for things like fanart or manga, but that is monetizing the access to the content and not selling that content, or is a way to support the creator and not outright buying it. Not really, those are just examples more attuned to the intended audience of Touhou. Remember, the preceding line was: Also: The qualifier statement has the phrase "but not limited to" in it. A lot of Western creators just do things for fun. Also, it can be intimidating to think of monetizing your fan content over here, because of companies like Nintendo that go out of their way to quash fan content they deem harmful to their brand and public image. Overthinking it further can lead to some not making even free fanworks over here because of that overhanging fear.