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So, i haven't been in the forum for months, and the reason is because i've been doing a lot on my personal life such as developing new personal relations and also working on myself, but before all that progress i had in my life, i went through the hardest times i could ever think of: the loneliness I'm an introvert, so i usually like to be alone, but it changes when it comes to feel alone I always loved to have my own time, thanks to that i discovered touhou and other things that made me happier, such as doing physical exercises and playing games, also thanks to that i found this forum where i did share a lot of my personal experiences and also opinions Since i disappeared, some people such as @CountVonNumenor asked what happened and if i was going to come back, and well, i'm not sure tbh, i found this forum cuz i wanted to share the few experiences i lived and also to know more about touhou, but in the transition between 2022 and 2023 my life changed completely, since i started dealing with several problems and also, with the loneliness feeling My experience with loneliness: So, since past year i've been talking to a girl which had several problems about health and her personal life, once she was a cocaine user and also a depression victim, but since i met her she changed, at least most of the time, she didn't use drugs or cut herself (due to her problems), it was life her life changed, even the subjects we used to talk about changed and instead of talking about negative stuff, we started talking about life and good things such as travels and etc Well, that was what i thought, this year she met another guy, but instead of trying to help her like i was trying to do, he did support her on all the shit she used to do, she even went to his house to smoke weed and have sex, and i didn't care at all, since it's her life and she can do what she wanted to I started to get away from her because she started saying weird stuff and asking me out, but i never wanted a relationship with her, and plus, some months ago she was having sex with another guy with the same problems as her, so why should i accept someone like that? Anyway, for some reason, i used to feel calm when she was near to me, but not because i loved her or smth, it's just because she was my only friend on work, once everyone went away from me since i started to meet up with her After some time she completely stopped to talk to me and blocked me on some places, and it made me get into a prison inside of my mind, i started to have a strong anxiety because i felt completely switched, i didn't have nobody to talk to, several times i did take my phone during the day to see if someone sent me a message or something, and nothing But then my friends tried to talk back to me, which didn't work, i got accustomed with being lonely, but i was still sad, so what i wanted at all? I wanted her company, i became a emotional dependant on her while she was hanging out with several friends who did the same drugs as her and had the same weird ideas as her And it made me notice what loneliness feels like, isn't just being alone, isn't just about not having nobody to count with, but yes about being in a prison inside of your head, a prison where you're feed with negative thoughts and self-devaluation, when you can't think about nothing aside from the problems in your life and when all you think of is about yourself and about how pathetic is your situation, thinking about how some kind of miracle would solve everything and make you get back to feel the way you used to when you were happier Nowadays, i'm with new friends and i don't have this feeling anymore, at least not at a very destructive point, i started dating again and now i have a way better life, but the first point to get better, was recognizing what i was feeling, and well, i know several people go through the same, and that's why i'll talk more about it now Loneliness: Well, being lonely isn't something that happens suddenly, but yes something that you only notice when it's already in it's extreme point, nothing is never enough at all, you feel alone even if there's people who would talk to you if you needed, you can't just ignore it because it will always get inside of your mind, when you lay down on your bed and look at the ceiling while thinking a lot about your life for example, when you're frequently feeling yourself empty and without value to others It is certainly worse when you really don't have nobody who cares about you, and well, due to that, several people end up developing depression and other problems, but a problem which always happen even if you have or not somebody who care about you, is the anxiety Being lonely causes a lot of anxiety, once you're frequently waiting for someone to send you a message or show some kind of interest on you, when you don't know what's wrong about you that apparently is making people get away and give up on having a talk with you, when you're thinking so much about the wrong points in yourself that you can't even work/study well, when you're always trying to find or receive something which can be a way to solve your problems And well, being lonely can end up making of you a true vegetable, which don't have any perspective of future and don't try to get better, and it can destroy completely someone, since those people can end up trying to be someone else instead of trying to be someone better I'm writing this because, nowadays, i opened my eyes about all this situation, and i can see a lot of people dealing with this same problem, and having no idea about how to solve it, i can't give a solution though, since the way i found to get better was forcing myself into new people till i found my friends i have now, and as much as i can recommend that, i'd say, everybody will always find their ways to solve their own problems Loneliness is literally killing people, and i say that not just because i had suicidal thoughts during that time, but also because i see a lot of people doing the same, and i did see people who actually did commit suicide due to this Please, take care of yourselves and try doing therapy or going to a psychologist, i'm not a doctor or a therapist, but yes one of the several people who already went through all that, and i don't desire this feeling not even for my worst enemy Maybe your problem can even be more serious, like depression or something, so, yeah, you should look for medical help if you identify with what i wrote, since i just got worse when i didn't look for this kind of professional help, i could get better alone, but this situation isn't the same for everyone See y'all someday! =D

Jet pack girl :0 Day 45: Rikako Asakura Rikako is neat. I like the fact she made a jet pack, which is really neat and adds to her little character. She does these inventions because she wanted to use science instead of magic (if I’m remembering right…) and i think it’s a cool kind of character in my opinion. Honestly I really don’t have much on this character, though she definitely could be a cool character.

Hello Mevs, I'm certain you don't recognize me as I joined after you left. Congratulations on starting to figure out something was wrong. Loneliness can be brutal, we thrived as a species thanks to our collaborative nature, and we are hardwired to seek connections. The best, practical advice I can give is the following: Stay Busy and Love Yourself. Find things to fill the void left by that toxic relationship, try to focus on things that don't have destructive potential, like eating a lot or spending unhealthy amounts of time devoted to entertainment. Learn things, find new people, create something, do exercise, anything that makes you enjoy life and don't get overly focused on the negative parts. Enjoy! Life is a gift! From reading the other responses, I can say, We are here to cheer you up.

Hey @_.Mevs. You won’t recognize me, even if I’ve seen your name now and then here. You left a couple months before I came onto the scene, and seem like a fun guy. I’m glad things have gotten better for you. Everyone has had their moments of weakness, but that is scant comfort when you are living through them in the moment. If you come back, I hope to get to know you. If you don't, I hope life is kind to you. Take it easy king.

I definitely prefer 9 over 19 so far. Though this might change if the community takes their time to improve this entry (as is with most pvp touhous). ZUN's native netcode is pretty bad for anyone trying to connect distances larger than japan mainland - japan mainland. Though I can't say I'm surprised. Parsec is a nice bandaid solution for the time being. The story mode is not a true 1v1 either, with it being a series of boss battles with an invulnerable oponent. What's even the point of the splitscreen? I haven't had the time to check the other modes just yet. The cast of characters is really interesting and new additions have their own appeal as well. Especially like seeing Yuuma and Ran here. Hisami's design is really unique, she's probably my favorite one of the newcomers. I do think ZUN continues to do Flandre dirty. Every other EoSD character has had their fair share of appearances (aside from rumia, poor thing), but one of the most popular characters in the series barely shows up beyond her original game. If we can't get a remake of th6, can we atleast have her shine again in another game? These are my initial thoughts anyway. I'd be happy to see OP (or someone else) elaborate on the points in favor of the game.

As no one metioned this topic i think i should. What you guys think about the newest touhou? I think it's a great game and the best phantasmogoria type game in the series. Gameplay is much better than PoFV and character selection favours the less known characters and adds four new ones. The barrier mechanic is making this game feel lighter than the older games and i like it. It makes the game so much more lightweighted and encourages to more agressive type of gameplay. As for characters it was a pleasant suprise to see Mamizou as a playable character. The new ones all look amazing even with ZUN's goofy artstyle. Son Biten is a clear winner when it comes to design and is a new competetor in the smuggest 2hu competition. When it comes to music it's great. The new themes are all catchy and old ones are just as good if not better than before. Overall great game.

For me it was very meh. The only improvements from PoFV is the fact that you don't have to spam the Z button and character select menu is prettier. I generally think that ZUN is unfortunately beyond his prime. The game feels very "stiff", for the lack of a better word. Stuff like the netplay as Canaranjo said, the lack of replays and score for seemingly no apparent reason, the lack of a true 1v1 since you just have to beat the boss battles etc. For now I've only beaten the game 2 times with Reimu and Marisa (also tried Ran but she has a horrible shot type) and for the love of god, what an abysmal last stage boss theme. I was never disappointed with a last stage boss theme and here we are with this atrocity (sorry of you like it). Also, other small things like the lack of a restart from start button (which existed on most of not all of Touhou games for Windows so it's not like ZUN had to implement a new feature) and dialogue skipping by pressing left control. I feel like the game has become a smartphone, removing features left and right. Finally, why are the collectibles so small and transparent?

I have not really caught up with the game news and what is going on. Could you please explain what happened? Outside the fact the game came out and what the character roster looks like, I have absolutely no idea of anything else. I have not played the game either, and probably won't do it given that bullet hell is not really my cup of tea when it comes to video games. So I'm listening, why is this "the worst game launch in Touhou history"?

Worst game launch in Touhou history

Gunpowder so Muskets. His knowledge is revolves around Industrial Age technologies so if Lunarian and Kappa tech shares some similarity his people should be able to understand the technology

Sounds good. Just don't have her followed by a squad of idols equipped for war and it should be good. You're a sensible boy, I trust your judgment. Haa, I did not expect to see Rika showing up. Since the Flower and Shrine tanks are kind of minimally depicted, did you envision them as 'real' tanks or more primitive tanks? Are you sure you don't want a personal power or friend? These could be plot-hooks in the future. We have our first OC and Genghis Khan decides to join us. Jokes aside, looks good. Do you see his knowledge of guns being exclusive to muskets, or extending to modern firearms, Kappa tech or Lunarian sci-fi tech? Being knowledgeable in muskets will help him with all firearms to a certain extent either way. Can't wait to get Senji and Rika alone in a room with Reimu eventually.

Today Touhou 19 was officially released. It has also released on steam. This thread naturally is going to have spoilers so you have been warned. Also, all the info comes from PerlDrop's discord server. Character Lineup: Some character designs:

Full game is out: On Steam as well if you want to support it: https://store.steampowered.com/app/2400340/Touhou_Juuouen__Unfinished_Dream_of_All_Living_Ghost/

I would have liked to leave a reply this evening, but it seems like it got late in the night, and what I was going to write would have been rather lengthy. I hope I can get back to is as soon as possible, and actually write what I wanted to say. This whole thread has hit way too close to home, and it reminds me too much of things that either happened or are happening to me right now. That entire feeling of loneliness is way too relatable, and I have also been fighting myself (a feelingly losing battle) against it.