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In an unusual case of personal inconvenience, the GotY soundtracks are all very large, and with the bustle of the upcoming holiday I haven't had much time to acquaint myself with them. Time grows short, but I will do what I can. Meanwhile, it's about time I got in my yearly Okami feature, as I proceed through another disc in the soundtrack for the third time. It's been over a year since the last one; the music isn't that much different, but as such it's still just as amazing! This time around there was one track that stood out to me as deviated a bit from the primarily "eastern" style that otherwise characterizes the collection, favoring a more "western" progression. Of course, it may be skewed perception on my part, so I won't point out which one it is; mayhap no one else will notice.

I have to be honest, it actually got me in the part of actually don't want a girlfriend Idk if it's the best place to talk about problems but, uh, maybe i need somewhere to talk about that. I've been dating a girl for 10 months and i don't have nothing to talk bad of her, she's the best, she always did everything to see me happy just like i did for her. Btw, she was one of the reasons i started liking touhou (she showed me a Cirno fumo, and i started loving fumos, and then touhou, even tho she don't even know about touhou xd) But besides the happy things, let's say, she is kinda, let's say, spoiled for attention and very insecure. I know isn't her fault but she's weirdly dependent of me, when i took vacations with my two friends to visit the Netherlands (country my family started), she sent me lots of messages, and when i didn't reply (because i was out or something), she started to spam stuff like "i can't live without you" and "i miss you". I spend 24/7 with her, and always i need to be alone for something, she gets sad and already even said she was gonna k!ll herself because for her "she's ugly and do everything wrong". The problem, i'm always talking and helping her, she even compliment me saying i'm always there to listen and help her, says that i make her life so much better and etc but well I'm unhappy, i can't play or nothing alone without she getting sad, when i say that i'll go sleep (literally a human need) she says for me not to go, and i don't go Idk what to do, i lost all my connection with my friends and well, i stopped having any social contact to only spend my time with her, i only can have time for myself when she go to sleep. She's a girl from my work, i always visit her and she also does with me, but when we're not together, she spams messages and if i take a little time to answer, she apologizes a lot, says she's dumb and etc. It worries me about her health but at the same time, i can't take this anymore, i feel unhappy and i feel like my life is only going backwards, losing my friends, stopping to see my family and barely going out anymore. I started a group without her, i wanna break up with her in January and make new friends and get back to be friends with my old friends too, she's a great girl but i can't lie, this is destroying my life, i wanna do something about it. Sorry for talking about personal problems btw, maybe isn't nice to comment about it in a Touhou forum but i felt like it was gonna be good for me to write about what i'm feeling! If you did read till here, thanks for it! ;D