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Alright, time for an actual reply. First of all, thank you for actually coming back into this, even so many months after the original post. I guess it is more about being a fan of this series feeling out of place when you are the only one in a large crowd knowing about the existence of the series. I thought people heavily disliked Jojo fans for being annoying. But yes, our community seems to be very dedicated to the franchise, and will always be able to create something new or introduce us into anything. I mean Touhou was referenced even on Cartoon Network, despite not directly/through a parody. But I thought Touhou also counts into the category of "weeb content", and we all know how much people hate weebs and weaboos. I used to not be very interested in the issue in the past. I was actually asked by my school colleagues why I took no interest in a relation, and could not explain it. It just felt like I was not interested, and tried instead focusing on other stuff. Now, I think it might start biting me in the butt. I used to prefer solitude for a long while, but then 2020 and lockdown happened. After 2 months stuck inside my home, I realized I need to see people, and when we could finally go out, I tried hanging out with my best friend as much as I could. Fascinating, I heard the same thing a while ago from an acquaintance. I would write a lot about this, but I have explained in full detail how I got into the series as part of my first thread on this forum Indeed, it is full of degeneracy. It becomes problematic though if the things from the internet are not only kept there, but also come into real life. Like if your "internet life" actually affected your real life and how people see you irl just through the lens of online posting. Maybe I have not missed so much. It is annoying though people make it as if I did though, especially when you have not gone through the "standard" stages of your life up to an age. Like if you are still very delayed with a lot of issues, or do not feel emotionally ready for them. Your logic says something, but your mind and instincts start beating you up with exactly the opposite. I have not felt the pressure of being alone until now, but recently it started becoming ever so pressing. And not really in the way of "I have to do it", but more like "I am feeling alone, I really need someone next to me". Yes, I have been feeling alone this entire last year, especially since I lost an entire first college year and interactions through long distance online courses. What also scares me a bit is that every traits I may be looking for to find on a girl, I have found exactly on my best friend, who is a guy. He is smart, has a personality (although having a personality is something arbitrary to define), we both like the same things (especially a strong liking for Touhou and history), and he is also the kind of person who I would stay talk to all day long and can listen to all my rambling for hours without getting annoyed. I guess finding someone like this, but as a girl, could be very hard, if not impossible to find if I not looking hard enough. Finally, my entire sentiment of feeling alone eventually went into what I am drawing, which can also explain why I am constantly frustrated and not satisfied with what I do (and perhaps one of the reasons how I ended up into Touhou, despite never having taken an active interest in anime/anime style art and bullet hell games). As much as I love designing tanks, there's still the feeling, almost self-pushed for drawing girls too. I was never too interested in that before 2020, but I started to feel it like a need for completing a void I have. Even designing my OC feels more like a coping mechanism, as one of my original thoughts back then was to design basically "the girl of my dreams". Which, as cheesy as it may sound, might just be a reflection of feeling lonely and become a more and more easy pray for waifu/cute girl bait stuff from media. Hell, maybe that was one of the reasons I actually got stuck into Touhou for so long and still feel fiercely loyal to it despite never having played the games (when in the very same fateful 2020 I switched through multiple fandom before landing into that one). Until recently, I have been in denial about a lot of stuff, but irl friends really helped me start realize some of the stuff and I've begun speaking more freely and honestly about it.

I think we recently got a rerun on the Hina Cheering Saga event. As for what is to come next, we can only wait to see what follows the Easter event rerun (points collection available until the 19th and event shop available until the 26th). From what I noticed, the game patter seems to be new event / rerun / new event and so on. As for the news roundup, a bit of a follow-up: News and updates Scarlet Devil Tower JP just presented their new batch of characters. This time, we are completing the Unconnected Marketeers cast by adding Tenkyuu, Momoyo and Tsukasa. Is is just me, or Tenkyuu's face looks slightly weird in this angle? Now, with the exception of Mizuchi, Yuuma and Miyoi, LostWord has added the entire Touhou cast starting with EoSD. Besides that, LW developers do not seem to be tired of adding even more new EoSD alts. Seriously, haven't we got enough Remilia and Flandre recently? I don't even know if their EoSD retros have been released yet, despite featuring in the Tower. Community discussion and memes Since many people complained about Remu EX, tutorials started to pop up in regards to how to beat that stage and what team comps to come up with. Usually, these stages require you either units you may not have yet. Or if you have the units, you may not have played enough to give them the MLB cards needed ("what, you do not have 24 MLB copies of Witch of Scarlet Dreams/Puppeteer and Necromancer/Mysterious Sword Master/etc? Shame") Let's not forget that, at least according to some, this entire EX stage was made specifically for being trivialized if you had C3 Yukari. A lot of these EX stages feel like they were made specifically for one character or another, and that you will struggle if using anything else. Nice strategy to sell a product. Sell a powercreep unit, then balance the upcoming content based on that unit(s). Main story is (still) trivial if you have that strong units, the real challenge of LW becoming these endgame content style challenges.

I've caught up with the Interlude chapter now and it's a shame those characters still haven't arrived yet, despite making a few appearances already. Sumireko was the main focus and she even had a new costume, so there's no reason for her to be missed out. This applies for the others too since we can see them in battles. I'll admit that I was very happy to see Parsee again and I really like how she's been depicted in the story so far. I might have replayed her cutscenes a few times :) I'm also confused with how they treated the MC. It seems like she's way younger than we expected, instead of being around the same age as Reimu and Marisa. Seeing Nemuno and Sannyo give her headpats was very cute though. Since the global version likes including new characters with events, I'll probably have to wait even more before I'm finally with Parsee. Maybe we'll see her if Hina's Cheering Saga gets another rerun. At least there's a few we can expect to have soon. If Gensokyo of the dead or Prismriver march is next, then I can't wait to see Tojiko and Raiko with their costumes.

All of this is...understandable. My personality is actually something that works perfectly in this kind of situation, I'm solitary but generally amicable, this results in me having good acquaintances and connections with other people, but that's where it stops, nobody knows more than surface level details about me, and that results in me having a sort of perfect balance in my social life. After all, it's nobody's business what you're into. And the drawing thing is somewhat understandable as well, although I don't draw to cope or anything like that, I just do...because I like putting my imaginations into physical form, and I find it super satisfying to do that for a reason probably only artists or philosophers or smth know lol. You have no doubt noticed that there's a sort of pattern with me: Sariel, Shin Megami Tensei, my Good Omens(which I just finished watching btw, and it was awesome. I recommend it to anyone here) PFP. I like Angels for some reason, it's not even because I'm Catholic, I just have an unexplainable fascination with them, and I find them cool and interesting. So do you know what I do about that? I draw them of course, and nobody needs to see them or find out about it or smth. People are judgemental, that's just how it is, we make fun of others, and harm them for being different left right and center. Feel free to draw what you like drawing, and if people who see them take it sideways(unless of course it actually is...you know...), then that's their fault for assuming, and possibly even projecting. And regarding the whole unstable emotional state thing, I get that too, 99% of the time I don't care about romance, but every now and then for some reason that's unknown even to me, I get this sudden urge like my body telling me "Hey, you need to find yourself a nice partner right now, AND START A FAMILY!!", and I'm like "dafuq? No?". It's strange and confusing I know But the formula I use for all of this is to simply keep track of everything important that needs to be taken care of right away and when I have free Time , I then use that as an opportunity to relax, to clear up my head, and think of what my next move will be. My M.O in life is simply to be grateful, adaptable, flexible, to be calm, to keep smiling, and to simply...'Ride the waves of fate' if you will. ...Also maybe go quite crazy every now and then, but considering what life can be like, I'm sure it's far more relatable than it seems, and besides I live alone anyway so I doubt I'm disturbing anyone lol.